Conscience

Knowledge or sense of right and wrong, with an urge to do right;  Moral judgment that opposes the violation of a previously recognized ethical principle that leads to feelings of guilt if one violates such a principle.

Inner thoughts or feelings.

In conscience means in fairness, on any reasonable ground.

On one's own conscious is said to cause one to feel guilty. 

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THIS IS WHERE IT GETS STICKY, WHAT I WARNED YOU ALL ABOUT ON THE HOME PAGE. 

I GUESS  THIS, BELOW, IS MY VERSION OF CONVERSATIONS WITH MY DEMONS.  I CAN NEVER ALTER OR DELETE AT THIS POINTS IT'S TOO VALUABLE I DON'T OWN THIS BOOK BUT I WILL BUY IT SOMEDAY I SEEN A PREVIEW AND IT LOOKS SO INTERESTING I'D RECOMMEND IT JUST BE THE PREVIEW I READ

Your conscience is like your will power to live in a way that fulfils and satisfies you.  Your conscience is your inner morality almost to stay true to oneself, not "adopting" some set of bullshit that isn't your ideal.  Your conscience tells you, silently maybe, but if you have one you always hear it, what is in your own best interests and what path you would succeed, prosper and flourish the most with.  

Your conscience is an absolute necessity. It's not about ego, it's not about selfishness, it's not about anything else but what feels worthwhile to you, and what makes you feel refreshed and not living in shame.  Living in shame means you have abandoned or somehow betrayed your conscience.  What you know, or should know, is morally incomprehensible.  

Ignoring one's conscience, or "gut feeling" always leads to agonizing regret.  There's a reason you feel a resistance.  We all have a Conscience, and if we ignore that we lose not only ourselves but our very essence.  

If you feel deeply in your heart, body, soul, or being that something is not what it seems, your conscience is telling you that you know it isn't.  The conscience, in my mind, feels deeply connected to the soul.  If you disobey your conscience, you are betraying and belittling your very soul composition.  

The most obscure "loss of soul" I have noticed recently that I do not ever want to fall into the trap of is the shaming and torment of another while attempting or working to bind them in such a hurtful way that they feel like there's not a way out.   They lose their essence, their credibility, their entire SOUL seemingly to  deprive their intended victim of respect or even the credibility to be considered.   When the "victim" begins to pull away successfully the attempts to retaliate, "for revenge" or to "get a handle" on the "victim" once again is what sends their essence into damnation.  They begin the blame game (no, not accusing ... pay attention THESE are accusations), or begin to threaten, becoming increasingly more volatile as they realize they have lost power.  THESE ONES are specifically soulless at that point in so far as I have experienced, knowingly because I had the book the whole time, these fiends attempting to use books like "48 Laws of Power," against me.  "Wait it out, if your enemy is too powerful, lay low until their power dwindles."  Anytime I feel like a subjugated woman, this one is the one my conscience has told me to use.  A subjugated woman ... someone society wants to force "karmic retribution" upon, without empathy, without reason, without an unbiased opportunity to redeem oneself. 

ABOUT VENGEANCE - THERE'S A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN VENGEANCE AND SOUL DWINDLING MISSIONS TO FORCE YOUR WILL OR YOUR WAY.  DENYING THE "KYLE" OF A SORT THIS OPPORTUNITY IS A FORM OF VENGEANCE IN AND OF ITSELF.  VENGEANCE, THEY SAY MUST BE GRANTED BY GOD, BUT 

VENGEANCE .... GOOGLE AND OTHER SEARCH ENGINES HAVE PURPOSEFULLY HID THIS INFORMATION ABOUT NEMESIS.  SHE'S THE GODDESS OF VENGEANCE, SHE CAN GRANT ONE VENGEANCE.  THE PRECURSOR HOWEVER, IS THAT THE SCOPE OF WHAT YOU CAN DO WITH THIS POWER, IF GRANTED, IS VERY BROAD.  SHE CAN GIVE YOU THE POWER TO EXACT VENGEANCE AND YOU COULD FUCK IT ALL UP INSTEAD.  

VENGEANCE IS DIFFERENT FROM ANGER AND FROM REVENGE.  THE VENGEANCE THEORY IS THAT THERE IS A DEFINITE REASON ONE IS SEEKING TO AVENGE AND THEY WANT THE PERSON THEY ARE VENGEFUL AGAINST TO KNOW WHO, WHERE, AND WHY THEY HAVE REACHED THE END OF WHATEVER THEY DID.  THEY WANT THE PERSON TO KNOW THAT THE REASON THEY ARE GETTING SHIT ON, STAMPEDED AND OVERTHROWN IS BECAUSE OF SOMETHING THEY DID HIDING.  

VENGEANCE IS INVALIDATING ALL THE SUCCESS WHOEVER MISTOOK AS PERMANENT EFFECTIVELY NAILING THEM TO THE CROSS IN WHICH THEY WORKED EFFORTLESSLY TO NAIL ME THERETO.  

THE CROSS IS A SYMBOL OF DEATH.  A SYMBOL OF PAIN, A SYMBOL OF HURT, PAIN, AND LOSS.  A SYMBOL OF LOSS OF LIBIDO, LOSS OF SEXUAL APPETITE, OR SEXUAL FUNCTIONS IN AND OF THEMSELVES.  

ANYTIME THE COLLECTIVE NEEDS A SINGLE WOMAN, ESPECIALLY A SINGLE MOTHER TO FALL IN ORDER FOR THEM TO PROSPER, THEY HAVE LOST THEIR SOUL, ABANDONED THEIR CONSCIENCE AND NAILED THEMSELVES TO THAT CROSS.  

If you feel like a piece of you or something you really loved about yourself was killed unjustly, my advice is to skim through "The first 48" and see what power hungry, soulless flat tires resort to.  If you ever feel like you have had your entire livelihood, joy, happiness or heart center ripped from you ... look through that book and see what speaks to you.  

Think about the Garden of Eden ... whatsername wanted to leave and then whatshisname attempted to invoke some type of judgment upon her to get stuck in a never ending destruction, of anything she build that day especially..